Trail of the Lost

Rating: ⭐⭐⭐
Author: Andrea Lankford
Genres: Non-fiction
Pub. Date: Aug. 2023

I’m not sure what to make of this. It’s a well researched and pretty well written book. Andrea Lankford has clearly been heavily involved in the missing cases of all 3 hikers featured in this book for quite some time. She covers each missing person in great detail, explains a lot of the quirks of thru hiking, and highlights different search techniques that are being used to try and find missing persons and the merits of each.

It’s an interesting enough read and it mostly worked as an audiobook. The only real complaint I had about the audiobook is that two of the missing persons are called Chris/Kris. It would be a lot easier to tell them apart reading it, but listening to it was a bit confusing and hard to know who she was talking about and I couldn’t keep straight what happened in each case.

Fundamentally, the problem I had with this book is that it’s become evident to me over the past few years that I don’t believe in extended searches for missing hikers. It’s a personal opinion. As someone who hikes a lot, I have given this a lot of consideration and I personally have told my husband to please search for me for 1-2 months if I go missing, but to then move on with his life. It’s morbid, and I understand the need for closure, especially for parents of the missing, but I feel that an extended search only extends the pain of family members and prevents people from moving on. There’s a very real possibility the missing will never be found. (for clarity, I’m only opposed to extended searches for missing hikers, not those who have potentially been abducted, kidnapped, or murdered – there are very different implications and risks between the two).

This is a very personal decision and I don’t fault parents for not being able to let go. But where I consistently get hung up on the idea of an extended search is when it puts volunteer searchers at risk. No missing person is ever truly abandoned by search and rescue. I do think their initial searches are often a bit on the short side, but they do regularly re-visit missing person cases, even years after the fact, and dedicate resources to searching. Which I’m totally in support of because they are professionals. But extended and self-organized searches can and do put the volunteer searchers at risk, which is why I personally oppose them. The only thing I can imagine that would be worse than getting lost and dying in the woods, would be other people trying to find my body and also becoming lost, injured, or dying.

I was extremely frustrated with the author when she went on a solo reconnaissance trip in dangerous terrain. Yes, she is a former SAR member, but she did become injured and it didn’t appear that she even carried at satellite device, just a phone. I thought if anyone would know better, it would be her. In addition, Pam got lost, Cathy continually put herself at risk, and who knows how many others got in sticky situations searching for lost hikers. This book just solidified for me that I’m opposed to this kind of initiative.

To be fair, Lankford does examine this train of thought in her book. She questions if all the work she and the other searchers have done has only extended the parents period of mourning and inability to move on. She questions whether putting herself and others at risk really justifies her work. She ultimately concludes that neither her or her core collaborators are able to just walk away from the grieving parents as they are, in many cases, the only individuals still searching for these missing hikers.

What I did like is the exploration of different means of searching, primarily, how technology can be used to support recovery missions. The group has had considerable success flying drones in remote locations and having “squinters” study the images to look for clues. It removes a lot of the danger of searching in person throughout extended areas, allowing on-the-ground searches to only investigate specific areas of interest. They have found several missing persons this way.

The book also highlights the many ways in which we’ve let down the missing. Most notable for me was the woman whose husband went missing in the snow and she couldn’t convince anyone to even search for him. A lot of missing people are ignored by the authorities who delay searching until it becomes too late to rescue someone alive. Most people can’t survive very long in the wilderness and postponing the start of their search only makes it much more likely that they will never be found alive.

Fortunately, we have more tools at our disposal these days, both as hikers and as searchers. I did find this to be a compelling read, though it was extremely disappointing that none of the 3 main cases were resolved. If you’re a hiker, it’s a good read, but I question how much our obsession with missing people (both related to hiking and from true crime) is really a productive or healthy use of time.

Under One Roof

Rating: ⭐.5
Author: Ali Hazelwood
Genres: Romance
Pub. Date: May 2022

Wow, this was terrible. I strongly suspected it was going to be bad, which is why I didn’t pick it up until now. I’ve been reading Loathe to Love You as my late-night-I-can’t-fall-asleep book and I’m sorry, but this was really trash. Not just smutty trash, but like… garbage.

Apparently there is a point of diminishing returns on Ali Hazelwood’s writing. I still loved TLH for the STEM setting and because it was something new, but Hazelwood just keeps writing the same story over and over again. Apparently this is just her early works fan fiction, re-written and published, and it shows folks! There is absolutely nothing happening in this 112 page story. Mara’s stream of consciousness narration is the stupid kind of girly-quirky that I hate, Liam has the personality of a boiled potato, and together they have zero chemistry. This woman is an engineer? Let’s see some of her engineering world rather than just telling us about sexist male engineers. SHOW ME.

I don’t think Mara leaves the house throughout the entire novella, and since there’s really no slow burn tension, I was hoping Hazelwood would just commit to the smut at the very least (I feel like that’s why this was written?). But then I read the smut scene and OMG you guys! It’s so bad and honestly, kind of non-consensual. It was cringe-inducing, I wish I could erase it from my memory. Also, is Liam ace? is he demi? You can’t just have him say “I don’t like sex” in the middle of sex and then not explore that at all. Like, at the very least, Mara needs to check in with him emotionally. They could both use a reminder about what consent looks like.

Honestly, this was a 1-star red for me, but I save that for truly offensive books, so it can have 1.5 stars. I don’t think I will be reading the other two novellas, but who knows. Ali Hazelwood has some kind of women-in-stem power over me and I keep thinking it will be better.

Lady Tan’s Circle of Women

Rating: ⭐⭐⭐
Author: Lisa See
Genres: Historical Fiction
Pub. Date: Jun. 2023

This is my 4th Lisa See book and I really love her as an author. I thought this had a slow start, but picked up a lot in the second half. It had the usual hallmarks of Lisa’s work in that it was really well written and filled with historical details and meaningful female relationships.

So I did like it, but it wasn’t quite as compelling as some of her other work. I felt she should have developed the front end of the book a little bit more because it was both boring, and didn’t have enough meat about Yunxian and Meiling’s relationship. It reminded me a lot of Snow Flower, even though it’s set several hundred years earlier. I found the character arcs and plot points similar, but Lady Tan isn’t set during any particular significant historical events, which is what I thought anchored both Snow Flower and the Island Of Sea Women.

The concept of female doctors for women is really intriguing and (I thought) quite revolutionary for the time period, so I liked that aspect. But a lot of the intrigue is fabricated, which is fine, just a bit less compelling. It took too long for the story to get going with not much happening. I felt like I was reading a history novel for the first half, before we finally got some drama in the second half.

Anyways, it wasn’t my favourite, but I still love Lisa See. I think The Island of Sea Women may be my favourite book she’s written, so if you’re new to her writing, I’d maybe suggest starting with that one! But I also enjoyed both The Tea Girl of Hummingbird Lane and Snow Flower and the Secret Fan better than this one, so check out my reviews for those too.

Zero Days

Rating: ⭐⭐⭐
Author: Ruth Ware
Genres: Mystery, Thriller
Pub. Date: Jun. 2023

Should I give up on Ruth Ware? She writes reliably good 3-star reads, but I can’t remember the last time she wrote something that I truly loved. I feel like maybe it’s time to part ways, but I kind of doubt I will. I’ve said this a million times, but her books are very readable. The only one I really struggled with was “The It Girl“, which I found super boring. You definitely could not say Zero Days was boring. The entire book is a high speed car wreck and it had me in a choke hold for 3 days (despite not loving it).

Zero Days is about a couple, Jack and Gabe, who do penetration testing for companies, which means that Jack attempts to physically break into the building to steal data, while Gabe attempts to hack the company. It’s all done in the name of helping companies to improve their security. Everything is good until Jack arrives home one night to find that Gabe has been killed and the police have their sights set on her as the culprit.

This evolves into an action packed police chase as Jack tries to evade the police long enough to get real answers about Gabe’s death. It’s hard to put down because Jack is constantly on the move, which I thought made it a bit more of a thriller than a mystery. The reason I didn’t like it is because the chase does get repetitive and I don’t think this book actually had a strong enough plot or mystery element to sustain it.

Jack is constantly on the run, which moves the story forward, but it doesn’t actually take her that long to develop a solid hypothesis on what happened to her husband. The problem is, she doesn’t have a shred of proof, so the book is more about her trying to get proof rather than actually solve the mystery. It created a lot of action, but it wasn’t overly compelling. Jack becomes injured early on and it’s hard to suspend disbelief that she’d be able to keep going with no bed, money, or healthcare for so long. There’s only so many ways to describe her pain and it got a bit derivative.

Add that to the fact that Jack is grieving. She has just lost her husband to a very violent death and while Ware does continuously remind us of that, it lacked any depth. I believed that Jack could keep going because she was pretty much running on pure adrenaline and avoidance from her grief, but I felt like it was a missed opportunity to look critically at grief and love. We’re constantly reminded of how much Jack loves Gabe and how shocked she is that he isn’t in her life anymore, but I feel like grief is a lot more nuanced than that I would have loved for Ware to show us.

I didn’t feel much connection to Gabe because we don’t really ever learn anything meaningful about him. Why did he go to prison? How did that impact him? How did Gabe and Jack fall in love? Has his past ever gotten in the way of that love? How did he help Jack heal from her previous abusive relationship and the loss of her parents? I feel like there was so much opportunity for meaningful flashbacks here instead of mindlessly running around avoiding the police (especially since the mystery element was so light). Show me more of their love story – make me fall in love with Jack and Gabe too because then every time the story returns to the present the reader would get this painful reminder that this man is no longer living.

I feel like all the bones were there for a really thoughtful story, but Ware only ever uses any of these elements for shock value. I felt like she was just asking, “how tragic can I make this character?” and I absolutely despise when authors use trauma for drama. Trauma and grief are relatable concepts for a lot of people and I wish authors would commit to the real lasting impact those things have on a character rather than just using it as stock filler to try and manipulate your audience into feeling bad for them.

The only thing I really liked about this book was Hel. I thought she was a great character and I liked that she’s never presented as a suspect. She’s the one reliable person in Jack’s life and I felt like this relationship was included to highlight the real importance of sisterhood rather than to try and confuse or trick the reader. I felt that Hel was a safe space and that she highlights the impact that having a reliable safe space can have on a personal’s mental health. You can’t trust anyone else, but you can trust your sister. I felt more love between these two than I did between Gabe and Jack.

Anyways, it’s a 3-star read from me. There’s no real depth here, but if you want a high paced thriller for a bit of escapism, look no further. The audiobook was pretty well done, but the repetitiveness of the writing definitely shines through in that format.

The Circle

Rating: ⭐⭐⭐
Author: Katherena Vermette
Genres: Fiction
Pub. Date: Jan. 2023

The Circle is the 3rd book in Katherena Vermette’s loosely related trilogy. I say “loose” because any of her books can be read as a standalone and while they feature many of the same characters, it’s not necessary to have read any of the others (I actually didn’t realize the first 2 were related until The Circle came out). I really loved her first two books, The Break and The Strangers, so I was super enthused about getting another book about these families.

All 3 books have fantastic writing and The Circle was no exception. Vermette is great at capturing both characters and atmosphere. It’s hard for me to remember the first two books now since it was so long ago that I read them – they all focus on generational trauma in metis families. The Break focuses on a violent crime against one family, while The Strangers looks at the family of the girl who committed the crime. The Circle is a marriage of the two books and examines the long term impact and inter-connectness of each of these characters.

I thought the concept of The Circle was fantastic. Let’s look at the cascading impacts of one event on so many people and examine how everyone’s process of healing is different. The Circle centers around this idea that to heal, you bring everyone together and give space for everyone’s pain. Whether or not this idea is valid, I have no idea. I can see how in some ways it could be healing, but I could also see how in other cases it might do more damage than good. Some of these characters are healing, while others are just perpetuating the cycle of violence and trauma.

In any case, this tangible idea of The Circle isn’t really explored in this book, it’s more of an abstract circle. Like I said, I liked the idea and I still think Vermette’s writing and characterization is very strong, but I struggled with the format. She writes every chapter from the perspective of a different character. It’s honestly impressive that each character gets such limited page time and yet she’s still able to get her reader to empathize with most of them. But I felt the scope was just too large for this short book and some perspectives definitely added a lot more to the story than others. There were some storylines that I really wanted to revisit, and others that I didn’t think added much. I would rather see an in-depth look at the main characters from the first two books rather than have the story spread across 20+ narrators.

It’s still a sad and moving story and I did still like it. I just wanted a lot more about Phoenix, Cedar, and Jake. I know that’s not really the point Vermette was trying to make, but it made the book harder to pick up again once you put it down. It didn’t have quite the same draw as her other books because the narrative was split too thin.

That said, I will still be continuing to pick up any of Vermette’s future books because she is a very talented writer!